Innerverse and Universe


The Universe recently taught me something about the Innerverse and vice versa, as they tend to do. Every generation gets to put their own stamp on what Truth means for them and what it’s worth to them to bring forth. Who has the courage to read the signs and integrate the knowledge available and evolve the species today? There are many voices vying to explain why we exist today and from the past, maybe even the future. Science has by far been the most successful to explain the exterior world. The spot the medicine man once held was taken by religion, which has given way to our current dystopia that so many predicted and warned us to avoid, which is led by science. We have become our own jailers in a prison of our own creation. Who will share their inner dreams and hopes with a world based only on empiracal fact where every bit and byte is sifted and analyzed? Are we just data? No, of course not. When one person breaks through the current barrier, they make that journey for all of us. I’m here to join with the seekers and dreamers.

I was also taught to always balance what’s happening outside with what’s going on inside. Don’t focus on any one direction too long was the point. Oh, and in all things be thankful and humble, do unto others, as you would do to yourself, because you are.

So much of the inner life is personal and inaccessible. You tend towards silence or ecstasy. I write here mostly to myself, but I believe, no, I know what is happening inside myself is happening in many others. We are here for each other in the end. You will see the fruit in action in a person’s life. Don’t neglect your life in pursuit of Self. It is about incremental improvement built on everything that has come before. Slow and steady wins the race, but don’t be afraid to share your Light and what you learn along the way and have every bit of fun and laughter you can. Magic stuff. Now is the time to stand up and speak, not obfuscate, but clarify. There is great ignorance in the world, clarity is needed.

Why is this?

I’m not a scholar, I’m an engineer. I’m always looking for more efficient ways to do something. We are taught to reuse solutions and to recognize common patterns. I have a personal metaphysical experience I am never really able to transmit to anyone. I am the experience of being this thing in time and space here and now. God is a tinkerer I know because we are. Nothing is ever done. I have to use my experience as the filter for the world. We are always in flux. This is the flow of the Tao all must, through some way or another, learn to navigate through living a simple life. There is no one way to navigate life. What fun would one path be? This awareness and knowledge I was given by the East and teachers. It was a great gift. I had to wrestle with it. They were given it by others. And in this way an ancient wisdom has made its way through the ages to a new generation, to us right here now where East meets West, North meets South and the wind blows through it all. Should my experience or our story end with the words from the past or does the story continue in us? Do we get to add a note to the song? Has all that can be known been opened to us already? I don’t think so. We bind ourselves in the past or the future. We are the ones alive now, sort of speak anyway, dependent on your point of view. This is our time. We have all that came before in us as well.

I have embraced every and no religion equally. I see myself in all of them one way or another and their truths available to myself. Every creed has “The Way”, generally the rest are seen as errant. Humbly I offer an opinion that we are approaching knowledge of the East all wrong. We should not become Taoists, Vedics, Sufis or Buddhists necessarily for example. There is no one way they are offering, but there is an ideal way of being they can all teach you. Many flavors of nonduality and oneness are available to people based on their tastes. I see oneness as the central message of the ancient wisdom being proven true today by science. I think Alan Watts spoke of this often and beautifully. Eckhart Tolle has also built on the Taoist tradition to great success translating its basic truths for western ears. I feel what is collectively happening to us inside today is being projected outwardly through our stories and technology. The study of myth is the study of our inner world. Carl Jung gave us a modern map to our souls and our group unconscious mind. He translated this ancient wisdom into modern archetypes. In this way machine learning and AI will help us see ourselves more clearly now more than ever as intellect begins to separate from consciousness exoterically before our eyes.  The machines will see and show us the common patterns in our data and we will understand ourselves better hopefully.

Our generation has been gifted access to techniques bestowing focus and patience from the East and has added a personal aspect to oneness. The West has brought Love and the personal to the Eastern nihilism of oneness and nothingness. The Internet represents the mirror I believe of our hopes, dreams and fears. I think the elections are demonstrating our inner corporate turmoil as well, we know something is rotten in the hen house and it is us. The question, what medicine can heal our disease? I believe also that the UFO phonomena of our age is a reflection of some of our deepest fears and hopes. UFOs have become the mandala of our age perhaps in our search for now, intergalactic wholeness, not just personal wholeness. We have gone beyond the brotherhood of man and now we ponder how to relate to the ‘Others’ possibly out there, while we struggle with our relationship with each other and nature right here. We are looking feverishly. We are desperate to discover we are not alone. We are preparing ourselves to answer the question whether we are alone.

We must all find the answer to this feeling of apparent aloneness ourselves and like fast. This is where Aliens or God in the sky are not needed. If we can see what we are, we will answer our question. We should compare notes. No one is more worthy, being qualifies you to ask and answer the questions of existence. We all have a part of the Light and Truth each has to discover themselves for the sake of all. Do we see ourselves as separate from everything or part of everything? That answer will dictate the future. It’s a pop fly, the Universe is teetering on the decisions we are making today toward wholeness in a collective Innerverse or separation and death in a cold harsh Universe.

For myself, this puts the UFO phonomena in a new light. To study it is to study our collective unconscious. I’m not the first to have this thought. I believe the UFO myth is being manipulating to effect changes in our group unconscious mind and set the tune for the rest. We know everything is connected. If we believe it together, we will move planets and Suns. This is a dangerous game the powers that be are playing. What we are inside is expressively itself collectively now outside. We might want to listen. I believe the powers in the world today know a great change is happening in us. We are evolving beyond time and space and just our senses. They aren’t sure if it’s a good thing to encourage or a bad thing to supress. It’s beyond profit. Our collective consciousness is stepping up. Will you suppress it or let it free?

Stellar Ignition


reignite your fire

in the ancient light

let your light shine

throughout the


9 of Cups


Be sure you are ready to ask
The Last Question
The answer will cost you
Everything you have gained
I learned my purpose
Was to learn to
I thought we did that
I was wrong
I had to learn
To love myself
I had to learn a lot
About what I was not
What was left
Was Me

I learned
I was master of all I survey
Outside and within
I learned to see and feel
The love of the Universe
To see the reality of all I hoped
In the eyes of another
It was a hard road
I’m enjoying the view
I see the Universe alive
Within and outside
Heaven is here
I always ran from it
I think this time
I will rest
And be

Enlightened Manson

Are you as free as Manson?
Look at him.
He has no fear.
Is he evil?
What is evil?
Do you know?
Is he crazy?
Are you?
Do you take comfort that you are not like him?
He found something at the end of himself.
Has he not helped to set you free?
Who is more free?
I say Manson had the last laugh.

You are Him and He is YOU!

When you see no difference
Between yourself and Manson
You are Enlightened

Does that piss you off?


Charles Manson: Everyone’s got something to blame, because no one wants to look inside themselves.

Reporter: What do you see when you look inside yourself?

Charles Manson: When I look inside myself? I see everything. I see all I’ve the good bad the evil I see the whole thing

Reporter: How much evil is there?

Charles Manson: As much as you see.

Reporter: What do you see?

Charles Manson: All of it. (laughter) Right down to peaks you haven’t touched yet. Dreams you haven’t dreamed, and worlds you haven’t conquered. The mind is endless. You put me in a dark solitary cell, and to you that’s the end, to me it’s the beginning, there’s a world in there…and I’m free.

The Universe In Me, Life at ~18.5 tredecillion FPS

How can you describe something infinite in a linear way using monkey brain abstractions? You can’t, you have to see for yourself. That’s the truth folks. Forgive my hubris, but let me illustrate my point. Imagine living in a straight line, no up or down, just straight ahead, only seeing what was in front of you, a one dimensional life. There is a Universe you would not see in every other direction than the point you were at.

My hubris, perhaps we should wonder how man is so sure of anything. I have become convinced that what human monkey brains think they know about reality could fit into 1 Quanta of an unspeakable number of Quanta in our holographic universe. I’m no Physicist or Mathematician, so forgive my child like descriptions of reality, which is the only way to truly see it, eyes wide open, as a child.

Now imagine you are one of the first Human monkey brains walking on the Savannah in Africa 100,000 years ago. Humans have no speech at this time and all they could do was grunt, have babies, hunt and kill each other. We started speaking 50k+ years ago. The oldest cave art in the world is between 35k-40k years old. Interesting most of the earliest paintings were by women, see above.

Ancient hands guiding us indeed.
Reminding us of something.
The paintings haunt me.

Writing came much later, maybe 6000 years ago.

Interesting. I see a progression, an evolution perhaps?!

There are trillions and trillions of biological events happening in your body at the same time at any given moment that you have no awareness of. You experience an infinitesimal awareness of all those processes and you get to be alive and walk around, which is pretty great if you ask me.

The smallest unit of time our physics understands is Planck Time. More specifically, one Planck Time is 5.39106×10-44 seconds. That means there are 1.85492×1043 Planck Times in a second, i.e. greatly simplified, life moves at ~18.5 tredecillion FPS.

Trillions and trillions of entangled particles in your body traveling through the universe in space and time at ~18.5 tredecillion Frames Per Second. That’s a lot of information! Where does it all go? Perhaps the whirling dervishes or Rumi can tell us.

Staggering, I mean crushing in scope and reality. I want a computer that will play my real life simulation at ~18.5 tredecillion Frames Per Second. What kind of technology could create a simulation like that, with almost no BSODs?! To my monkey brain, that kind of simulation is impossible, but I can only use 5 senses to determine that. 5 vs. ~18.5 tredecillion. Hmm, what really do we know, really! Can you yield at least this point? The scale of what we do not know seems like the number infinity to me. The reality is we live at infinity frames per second. Life is continuous, so we don’t quite live in frames, more like space braids in time maybe.

What is this gift of Being at ~18.5 tredecillion FPS? I love that number, I am going to tattoo it on me. It is truly wondrous. It comes down to perspective I guess. I looked at the staggering amount I could not know in my conscious awareness and I went within. Hey, that’s me. I found something there and I was bumped out of linear life and began experiencing more wavelengths, awake.

A great many things became clear to me. A compassion grew in me. Synchronicities multiplied and grace flowed in my life. Most other struggles ceased and pointless things fell away. I began to bubble poetry and speak as if it was a matter of life and death to those I loved around me. The boat corrected itself. Not that I have arrived somewhere or am claiming enlightenment. We have to push against something to grow. I always want to push. I love pushing. I don’t want to throw in the towel and float away a guru. I chose to fight and push. I want to see the Universe, all Universes! That might just take eternity. I want to push up against the Universe itself. What must I become to push against the Universe? What kind of muscles would one have at that point? Grace means to receive the Presence of the Divine. To be connected to it, filled by it, purified and cleansed by it. Because that will be what will happen. There is something with me, in me. Crazy, huh? I’m a fool and we are all living in an absurd dream. Perhaps the ADHD of my generation and many before was an attempt to jump humans out of our linear trap of thinking, programming and living.

We can see more
We feel more
We hurt more
We struggle more
We hear more

But the vessel must be prepared and seasoned to receive. Let the ones of us who can make the connections and follow the threads show you the path to a truly amazing reality. Show you some of the 360 view. Because I tell you with no shame and burning Love, that there is a truly unspeakable reality beyond our view. And as soon as someone tells you they know and tries to explain it, you know they have never been. But that reality only points back to the beauty of this one. Yin and Yang. I chose to live in the moment. This is the perfect moment and the one I chose. Christ and many others showed us the way. A true teacher will take you to the water, but you must venture in and dive deep. No one can take that journey but you. It takes courage and faith. It will cost you everything. The truth is beyond all the liars and charlatans in this world. I am no one special. I just opened myself to something more and confronted every fear in my life and the ultimate fear, death. Can we conquer death, perhaps, but from fear or faith? I chose faith.

I have found a treasure no one can take away. An unshakeable hope. It silences all doubt and fear. It has cleansed and purified me. Poetry is just my joy and wonder of a particular moment in time. We are not our past moments, those are gone. Learn what you can from them and move on. We are easily trapped by them. We are infinite in the moment if we choose to be. How much you choose to receive of what the Universe is broadcasting is up to you. What is life but a dream.

This was a good day and I am thankful.