there is something in me yearning
wanting to break things
to be free
making connections I can’t imagine
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a portal…
everything around me seems totally solid one second
the next, it appears to shimmer transparently
like a gossamer dress
something tells me…let go
i want to knock all the pieces off the table
mix it all up
rearrange things
knock around
be a punk
quit it all and wreck it
build it up again
chaos has a hand on my shoulder
an angel on the other
i feel my whole soul
as the world hurls into chaos
i feel myself moving with it
it feels dangerous
part of me loves it
another piece is terrified
people collecting awards for acting
what a con
what a joke
people acting holy and appearing pure
insides filled with black tar
so many pretty faces
so much ugly pain
one realizes they have to take the beauty where they can find it
dwell with it
be in it
will that keep all the tar away
all the uglies
no, we dwell within the ruins
i don’t know why I say these things
why I should feel so split
crazy perhaps
mad
mad for life
mad for death
mad for LOVE
Quantum Heart 