The Walk

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Warning! Spoilers ahead!

I am terrified of heights, terrified, always have been. I can fly in a plane just fine, but get me up above a foot stool and my stomach falls out. Now isn’t that interesting. I can trust a plane more than a ladder. Doesn’t it seem to always come down to trust. What do you trust? What do I trust? Anyway, as I was thinking about this recently, I saw this new movie “The Walk” was coming out soon. Seemed an interesting story, it is about Philippe Petit who wire walked across the World Trade center towers. I was NOT going to see it!

I had told myself, I will NEVER see that movie. How could I? Slowly as the release date approached and I caught myself sweating about it. I was literally sweating over the anxiety that the movie represented to me, the one I was NEVER going to see. This is the interesting part, I realized, in the moment, these were some of the most intense feelings I have ever felt. Over a movie about a wire walker I was NEVER going to see? Well, this piqued my interest as I meditated about it and I determined, I must see this movie if it can already evoke such an emotional response in me. I can always shut my eyes at the hard parts. I decided to do this right, I had to see it in IMAX 3D, go big or go home is my credo.

The movie opened with, “A true story.” We shall see I told myself, but I liked the bold statement. As my girlfriend and I started to watch, a particular part of my anatomy began to shrink, quickly. It isn’t what you think and I began to cling to her, like a little child. My stomach disappeared, which was a problem, because I was eating popcorn. I told myself that when we get to the hard part, remember, you can shut your eyes. Unfortunately, as the movie progressed, I began to understand Philippe and the purity of his heart and quest. It was profound to me and very serendipitous, a common theme in my life as of late. To walk the tight rope of life.

As the story unfolded I saw that there was no compromise in this man. He represented iron will and fear contained. He was scared, terrified, but he set his heart on the most impossible thing, not for fame, but out of pure creativity and joy of the moment. This is a man to know and a heart, that I began to feel, reflects the best we can be. Yes, it was a magical alchemical act and moment of awareness. He did it in front of the world that gave it even more power. He transcended the system and his limits through his joy!

As the inevitable coming moments looking over the edge of oblivion were joyously foreshadowed, my fear began to multiply, by a quintilbillion(I made that number up, but you get the idea). Looking over the edge of the world trade tower in IMAX 3D, what was I thinking?! I told my girlfriend, we might have to leave. After I let these wimpy words leave my mouth and I lost all pride, something in me stirred. You owe his courage to watch with your “Eyes Wide Open”. Clear as that. So I did what Philippe was doing on the screen.

I stopped thinking
I focused on my breath
I was in the moment

And then…

I had no fear
My eyes were wide open
Looking down on the scene above
I felt like I was right there with him
He laid down on the wire and looked up

I watched his ENTIRE walk, oh no, not once, but over 4 times he walked that wire! For me, this was a perfect still moment. I imagined I felt it as he did in that moment. I was transformed and transported in that moment. It was an expression of complete trust on his part. That is the lesson I took from it. He had no faith, just iron will based on trust. There are teaching moments in our lives. Every moment of our lives can teach us something if we but open our eyes to see the motivations behind our emotions and actions. There is always a root cause somewhere. Tracing those threads in our lives and discovering what they have to teach is the work we must do on our own.

There was a great deal of hidden esoteric symbolism in the movie as well. I thought it was very interesting that I could see it and that it was placed there for a reason. I am inspired by Christ and all the teachers presenting themselves to me past, present and future. I am encouraged in my quest to find and be Divine Love. Thank you for pushing me to face my fears. I encourage you to face those fears down one by one in your life until you find nothing holding you back from your Golden Dawn.

Life should be lived on the edge of life. You have to exercise rebellion: to refuse to tape yourself to rules, to refuse your own success, to refuse to repeat yourself, to see every day, every year, every idea as a true challenge – and then you are going to live your life on a tightrope.” – Philippe Petit

Conference on Science and Non-Duality

I’ll be attending this month in San Jose, CA, 10/22-25, exploring the nature of consciousness. There is still room. I am so looking forward to this.

http://scienceandnonduality.com/exploring-the-nature-of-consciousness-2/program-sand15us/

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Mystical Art From Down the Rabbit Hole

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Is Naturalness Dead?

Is the Universe knowable or unknowable? Based on recent Large Hadron Collider findings, it appears a knowable natural Universe is unlikely. What might this mean? It means our Universe might be a bubble in the Multiverse, an infinite number of other Universes, created and tuned for our existence, not determined and predictible, which makes me kind of happy. Arkani-Hamed, one of the greatest theoretical Physicists alive today, laid out the seemingly contradictory implications of recent experimental results at the LHC after the Higgs discovery.

“The universe is inevitable,” he declared. “The universe is impossible.”

Most Physicists feel that there is something more fundamental to nature than the experienced dimensions. Our reality emerges from more fundamental structures. Arkani-Hamed discovered a new geometric pattern that can simply predict particle interactions, an amplituhedron. This natural structure emerged from the math and is a simple version of quantum mechanics at the most fundamental level. Geometric structures explaining reality, interesting. The geometric object is an example of the most fundamental logic of the Universe: describing intersecting lines and planes. It appears the motion and history of the Universe is encoded in this pattern. In unpublished work, he feels the interchangeability of points and lines in the geometry of the amplituhedron may be the origin of a mysterious mathematical duality between particles and strings. Everything emerging from crossed lines.

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This puts Einstein’s dream of a natural, beautiful, inevitable(determined) and self contained Universe in jeopardy. I’m an engineer, not a Physicist, but I am always trying to understand my experienced reality skeptically. Well, I seek less to now understand reality and focus more on the best way to experience it resulting in maximum spiritual growth. I think reality is just a game and we are all players on it’s stage. I’m not going to take your word for it or anyone else’s. My question, could the Multiverse not be a real time reality, meaning, infinite possibilities existing concurrently in different Universes? If all possibilities are possible in the Multiverse, the rest and best realities exist out there.

Supposedly string theory, an attempt to unify Einstein’s relativity with Quantum Mechanics, the sub-atomic world of particles, supposedly has 10 to the 500 possible Universes in the Multiverse in 10 possible dimensions, we live in the first 3. That is not intuitive to humans. More and more the physics anomalies are growing, we are missing something. See Thomas Khun’s book, “The Structure of Scientific Revolutions”. Considering the effect of consciousness on reality may be part of what is missing.

The Anthropic Principle is the Law of Human Existence. It is well known that our existence in this universe depends on numerous cosmological constants and parameters whose numerical values must fall within a very narrow range of values. This does not make sense to most Physicists also, thus was born the Multiverse theory. I think the Multiverse exists as potential, and answers the question, how could we be so lucky? That is just an intuitive statement and just my opinion.

From the string theorist most Physicists feel is the brightest among them, Edward Witten, “I would be happy personally if the multiverse interpretation is not correct, in part because it potentially limits our ability to understand the laws of physics. But none of us were consulted when the universe was created.”

Einstein said, “Religious feeling takes the form of a rapturous amazement at the harmony of natural law and this feeling is the guiding principle of his life and work.” My life is no different than that, I have a sense of awe at the Universe and am trying to figure out my place in it. I stopped caring so much what it is.

All of this makes me excited and affirms what I feel intuitively. I am not looking for the God of the gaps. I know the creative force that created the Universe, I feel it and experience it. You will never have all the answers. The answers are not the point. The point may be the questions and how you ask them and more importantly how you experience the Universe.

We can never know what exactly the Universe is if we exist in a Multiverse. We can not test this theory. Is this the end of Science? I hope it is a humbling time for Science. Because we all need some humility seeking to unlock such secrets. Perhaps in our current state we can not see more than the matter we are made of. What do you know?

Arkani-Hamed, a hero of mine and a great person and Physicist(like a child), found success by pursuing his own ideas with unbridled enthusiasm, politely disregarding naysayers and tackling obstacles head-on. I will try to be worthy of this mantle of great seekers in my pursuits. They are looking for more hints from nature to understand what the Universe is and want to build bigger colliders. I think this struggle of Physics reflects our internal spiritual struggles and striving. It was spiritual for Einstein. I believe the way forward will be born from a synthesis of the natural and the spirt. We are half blinded in our search. I think Science and spirit are complimentary, but beneficial or destructive based on your intent. You manfiest your own reality I believe. I wasted my life for so long on meaningless material pursuits.

No more!

No limits!

The Knowing

I have been meditating on the passage below.

: The knowing is not the thoughts :
: The knowing is not the feelings :
: The knowing is not the body :
: The knowing is not the mind :
: :
: The knowing is found beyond the thoughts :
: The knowing is found without the feelings :
: The knowing continues when the body does not :
: The knowing transcends the mind :
: :
: The knowing is found within :
: The knowing is sometimes forgotten :
: The knowing is never gone :
: The knowing is for you to find :
: :
: The knowing is who you are :
: The knowing is where you have been :
: The knowing is where you are going :
: The knowing is knowing you know :

I know

Threshing Wings

Buds bursting new life and beauty
Hummingbird wings threshing
Sorrow floating away on the blue breeze

The old passes away to brown
Blue morning brings fresh nectar
Drink your fill

I hear the morning sing
The song rises in the deep oak
New mercies today

Image, Threshing Wings – Omega

Current Obsession, New Mystical Rock

Duncan Sheik has grown as I have in my own life over the last 20 years. I was always drawn to his melodic siren songs never quite sure why. What an interesting synchronicity to find his new music singing the songs of my heart as of late. I love this new alchemy. Lose yourself in the melodic waves. So much to hear.

http://www.npr.org/player/embed/444201099/444521379

At the Gate Of Humility – T

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“Only a person who has passed through the gate of humility can ascend to the heights of the spirit.”

To all of those who helped me on my journey
What can I say
I will repay my debt to you with my open arms
I will fan the flames of truth wherever I see them
I will love with abandon
I will give all I have
I will never turn away one who seeks the truth
My life for them
My life for you
See with my eyes
See your son’s broken heart mended anew

I am naked before the world
I am a foolish man
I have fallen for the oldest tricks
Who can I trust
No one
You can only trust in what is within
I always doubted my voice
I was always pushed away or out
I always asked too many questions
I let myself and others down following my lusts and passions
I lived in fear for my very soul
Then, at the right times, seeds were planted
Embers flamed
And I found myself at the Gate of Humility
Many hands pulled me forward
Doubts melting away
Shedding fear
And feeling boundless love
I found something so true and so precious
I wish I could shoot my heart upon the world
So all could taste of the sweet truth singing in my blood

I see a great darkness creeping at the fringes of our world
An ancient foe
How can we contain such darkness
Only with the cleansing purifying fire of the light
You must be righteous and true to walk this path
There is no room for the old ways
If I don’t let it shine
Who will
You
Please, come and throw your life into the only
Fight that matters

It is time to rise and shuck off the shackles of ignorance
It is time to love your brother
It is time to resist in love
It is time to learn what you truly are

I am on the edge of a new dawn
It makes me laugh with joy to see and know myself
I look over my shoulder
With the wonder of a child
How can this be real
Because this is destiny

I am no one
Damaged goods
I make people uncomfortable
I delight in tipping them over
I try to show them the absurdity of life with no spirit
I have such raw power flailing out of me

I heard a voice singing in my soul

I saw how beautiful I was
I saw how amazing and unique I was in all the Universe
Perhaps I am the only real person in the Universe
I created all of you to share this with me
I love you
This is the way I feel about the world
I feel a stillness rising
I feel the warmth of the sun
I see the hummingbirds enjoying their nectar
From my chair
The soft sweet breeze blowing
I feel connected in new ways
The nano fibers of my being begin to connect
I feel myself expanding across the dimensions
I feel time speeding up
I see things I can never explain
Is that not evidence enough

I confess my need for something more than myself
I walk with no faith or belief
I begin to rise and move without knowing
Where will this path lead
I wish you well on your journey
I can not help but share my foolish words with the world

If you are at the end of yourself
You are closer to the truth than ever in your life
What a dumb thing to give up now
I’m telling you from one who knows
Press on and push through
Start your heroes journey
Seek in love of all
And you will find your way

Image, At the Gates Of Humility – Shane Booth

Navigating the Subtle, Magic is Real

An excellent article written by a fellow techie who heard the subtle song and followed the path within.

Magic is Real

I don’t know how, but I know why this new subtle path rises in my and other’s lives. It was the original path at the root of all things. Before our industrial and technology revolution you could tune into the only channel in the Universe, it just wasn’t a commonly known thing, it laid hidden beneath, gently influencing our culture and keeping us from going over the edge. Well, that path is more than a genie in a lamp, that’s the fools trap, its about realizing your connection to all things. That’s a threatening idea to a lot of our culture on Earth right now. So much fear, greed and living for yourselves distracted in the illusion and permanence of matter.

We must sing a new song. I and my generation feel and experience the Universe. Its not learned in a book. There is not an equation to describe it. Though some would only settle to know how the matter moves, I found out why and how to be whatever you want. In the moment you have access to enormous power infinite power if you are in balance and able to channel it. That ego is your biggest bag to check. You must cease your thinking. The source of so many problems, thinking and desire. Just follow the words so often spoken by the wisest of us, to find yourself you must die.

It’s transmitted from person to person and lived in loving community. Alchemy is not about turning lead into gold. Its about transforming and merging what’s above with what’s below. It’s a self reinforcing path and others can only show you the way. You have to do the work. And it does take work. Its a costly grace in my experience.

You may have no faith or a great one, all of us reduce down to the same stuff and all have access to the same Truth. The world does not need governments. That’s the illusion. We don’t need to be controlled or feared. My generation and the Millennials are waking up and we will show you old farts a thing or two. You think we are weird, distracted, hyper, crazy, deluded? We do not just live for ourselves or live for the false security of matter.

I am clearer than a still mountain lake
I am beautiful in my splendor
My songs and prayers fill the heavens
A sweet incense to the higher ones
I wish you peace and love
I wish for you to awaken from your slumber
And take your place among the stars

I promise you, we will crash across the Universe with our love and songs!