I had felt myself slowing down like the sap oozing from an old wounded pine with a thousand self inflicted cuts
Life had left its mark on me inside and out and stripped me down to naked red bare skin and had left some bone exposed
When she found me I was suffering from exposure like an old gold miner past his prime freezing in a blizzard fumbling with matches to make a fire
The howling snow had blasted away the sand and dirt that I had used to fill in the cracks in my broken soul and exposed a crying little boy underneath
I had destroyed my old childhood faith and had taken joy telling my family and friends to take their false religion and go to hell before heading into the wild mountains
My heart was raw and sore but open for the first time in my life like an open heart patient on the table fading away in the middle of a blizzard
The words that came from my mouth were honest but my mouth was dry and cracked from the cold and my head ached from a 40 year bender
My only friend left was my old lab with me in the storm who I barely knew and who was still afraid of my anger and wouldn’t come close to me in the storm
She found me there almost dead and led me to her warm cabin in the middle of the woods and she made me some tea and gave me some bread
Quantum Heart 