My Best Self

What is wrong with you?
I don’t understand.
It hurts so bad!
“You don’t know me!”
Who does?
“This is best.”
For you?
How could you do this to me?
“I hate myself and I am lost.”

His gaze has left me.
I am nothing but a hypocrite.
No better than an animal.
No one can make me happy?
Why will this heaviness not leave me?
I am a fake.


Mmmmmm, feels so good. What was I saying?
Oh yah, I’m a false person.
A Zombie.


That feels soooooo good. More please.

You think that feels good
We have a Universe of wonders to distract you

That sounds tempting.
I disgust myself.
I have no feeling.
Unquenchable hunger.
I only live for myself.
Everything tastes like BPA.
What am I?
What have I done?
I feel terrible.
I’m definitely going to hell.
Where is my faith?”
Who would look at me if they knew who and what I was?
I am nothing.


Who are you
Listen to me now, ENOUGH
You are beautiful
You are a fading flower
I have set creation in motion for you and many
You are only whole in me
Come back Come back
We feel your pain
We wonder how you can feel so separate, when you are whole in me even now
I will never stop pursuing
I will never waiver, or the Universe would snuff out
It takes a Divine concentration, I am focused
Christ, Buddha, Hindu, Muslim and many more are your true family
You are all part of the same genetic tree
All of life is entangled and intertwined
So much pain and anger
We are all tired, rest in me and lay your fears and hopes at my feet
I Love you, that means I will never stop trying to help you
Be your best and all of creation will align itself to assist you
Call on me and I will lift you up
There are infinite possibilities
Your wave form will collapse at the transition and what you are will be
These are mysterious and wonderful things
Cast yourself into the deep water and I will show you wonders
You will be changed in a twinkling of an eye
Everything to know is in you and if you follow that path you will find me at the end of the Universe

Please, no more, I can’t take anymore.
Turn it off.
I don’t want this.
I am not an illusion.
I can do this, let’s rally.
Wait wait wait, not again.
I yield.

Whoa! What was that! Something wicked this way comes.

What is this thing in my head and in my heart, my God!
It’s tendrils wrap through my soul into my bones and into my DNA.
This is not me. This is other.

And when your mind is lost to it’s siren call, you will fall asleep
For there is nothing but you and you are the most beautiful thing in the Universe

I feel sick.
I have the flu.
I can’t work.
What is wrong with me.
My head hurts.
Why can’t I stop crying.
I know this is what insanity must be, I’m losing it.
I don’t want to do this.
What have I done?
What am I saying?
Everyone can see.
Please, someone help me!

Time for some truth and it will strip you bare to your real self
A fire will fill your veins and you will not be able to contain it
It will join with others until all of creation is on fire with my Love
You have the chance to become your best self in me

Let it all BURN, BURN, BURN!
I’m on fire!
What is this, I’m still thinking!
I can feel everything!
I’m tired.
I think I’m just gonna sit here a while and collect my thoughts, but its getting pretty hot.

This is all as it should be
Don’t Panic
This is what you are
This is why you are in such pain
Let me take it from you
Let it go
It’s ok
See, gone
You see yourself in your dream and you longed to arise
The sleeper has awakened
I have written it into your DNA
Even now things are changing and rearranging
The possibilities are multiplying
Love WILL show you the way
Stay connected in truth and love
You are becoming

It seems so simple.


What now?

—Be still and wait—

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